in my mommy's steps

Makaela woke up with a bad eye infection yesterday. :( As simple as an eye infection is, I HATE seeing her in discomfort and knowing I can do nothing to help.

Just a few weeks ago, M came down with her first ear infection on her first birthday:(. My mom had flown in to celebrate with us and she ended up spending most of the time listening to Makaela scream her head off in pain:( Makaela could not sleep lying down, so for the first time since she gained her "independence", she fell asleep on my chest with her bum up in the air. I rubbed her back and it felt like she was inside my belly all over again. What an AMAZING experience, sitting in the room with my mom, taking care of my sick baby! After all, my mom is normally the one rubbing my back!!

Lying in bed last night I was thinking about my mommy and I started to understand her love for me. It's hard to imagine myself as a baby needing to be loved and cared for like I do for Makaela. But being a mom has opened a whole new world of love and understanding for me.

I understand why when I was 16 and wanted to drive right then and there, why my mom had a different opinion!

I understand why when I left for college there were many tears.

I understand why when Greg and I said, "I do", that there were mixed emotions!!!

It's like it all makes sense to me now. :)....

I was her little girl too!
(Oh Makaela, don't grow up too fast.)

My hope in being a mommy to Makaela is that we can develop the same love, respect, trust and friendship that my mom and I have now. We could not always be "friends" while I was growing up because she needed to be mom... but I love and respect her for all those "tougher" times of being my mom! I am so thankful for her sacrifice.

I am PROUD to be called her daughter.

Feel better mommy. I love you.

"And now, little children, abide in him; that, when he shall appear, we may have confidence, and not be ashamed before him at his coming" 1John 2:28

manda